Choices to make

There's so many choices you have to make as a parent but I believe that as a 20 year old mom about to be 21 everyone is staring at you watching every move you make every word you say if the judge mental people could read your thoughts for sure they would be picked apart before you could finish your thought you know if your child goes out in a dirty onesie right after being feed you can feel the judgement people are passing just by the side way glances you get you can her them say "who would say how could that mother be so neglectful" or "she probably doesn't even pay attention to her lil girl" when in reality you've been running all day doing things to provide for your child but hey if they say a mother older with 1 or more kids it "bless her heart at least she managed to dress all her kids and get them out the door" now before you judge that I have no idea what I'm talking about I am the oldest sibling of four kids and only have 1 daughter myself but from my experience 1 lil girl is as hard as 4 i don't care who you are I think it's a miracle that any mom Sigler or married get anything dons and I'm surprised at how people without children can judge so hard you know if we're a 20 year old parent we have to be careful what we choose to do like how we choose to punish our children or award our children you know I always said I never wanted to parent my child like my parents did with me or any of my other siblings and I still feel that not that I think I can do better bcos I'll give it to them having four kids we each responded differently to punishment and so forth what worked with me sure did not work with the youngest of us so I don't want to do better I want to do differently from them but due to the judgementel people it's like walking on egg shells DCS went from want to help families to tearing them apart and I've seen parents my age who aren't together use it like a gun on the other person it makes you wonder why do you need to be judge how did our lives get to this point I just wish that with the choice I am faced to make that I don't do it based off of how I'm being judged bcos although the people watching me act as though they are important in reality they aren't what's important is what decide is in the best interest of my daughter